first week almost through

Well first week back and its sunday , my leader gave us a six week challenge and for the first few days i was really good with the tracking but then i started to get slack but i didnt really eat anything bad so hopefully the scales will still be my friend this week . I suppose tomorrow is another day and a new day of tracking and keeping on track.
this week i promise to at least track 4 of the 7 days then the week after i will make sure i track for the full 7 days.
well time to go have a great day.

was on hold but now am back

hi everyone ,
well after being through a few rough weeks with that news about my daughter and so on i am now ready to get back on track.
the last few weeks all i have been eating is junk food and i have not been exercising at all and i feel like crap i really do, and ive put back on i think about 5kgs in 2 months.
i have realized that me not being on my weight watchers has been really bad and not only that i am soooo hungry all the time.
ive been eating that much junk food that im actually sick of it i would be happy not to touch another burger meal again.
i know thats not going to happen but at least im at that point where im like ok thats enough.
so here i am back and hopefully i stick to it this time i just have to remember how sluggish i have been feeling lately and also rmember how good i was feeling when i was walking and eating properly.
well have a good week everyone and will be going to meeting tomorrow night better show my face back there and get back into it.

why why why

today im not here to talk about my ww journey but im here to ask why ???? why did i just put my beautiful little girl through a year of chemo when she was only 1 and a half to start with? Why did i listen to those doctors who said that if we put her through the chemo that she wouldnt loose her sight in the bad eye? Today we found out that our baby girl is blind in her bad eye and i cant stop crying she is only 2 and a half and she has been through so much in her short life and there is nothing we can do about it. i put her through chemo every month for what ???? yes her eye does look better and yes the tumour has shrunk but it was supposed to stop her going blind so much for that . Im so angry and hurt and sad and dissapointed , just cant believe this is happening . I should be thankfull that she still has the other eye's sight and that she is healthy and happy but those doctors gave us faulse hope and i hate them for that.

another fortnight gone

well like usual here is another blog, i dunno what is wrong this last fortnight but i just cant seem to get on track and i really havent wanted to and i dont like this feeling. i havent weighed in for 2 weeks and am thinking i dont want to put the weight back on so here i am its monday and ive been back to weight watchers (didnt weight in) but went for the meeting and am going to track every single little thing weather it kills me or not.
i sort of had a little break through tonight i have been a bit depressed (just came off my depression medication) and anyways i though roxy u should just get the dog and go out for a walk it will make ufeel better unfortunately it was dark if only i had of thought of that earlier.
i do realize this is a life time journey which obviously takes a lifetime but god i just wish it wasnt so hard if only i could wite out a list off all the foods and meals i eat and someone would do me a menue plan for me.
On a good note i went down the beach today and actually wore shorts i never go anywhere with shorts on in public so that was a big thing for me i almost didnt do it but with a little help from my partner i got there .
Hopefully next blog will be a happier one with more postives. also more weight loss.
why is it kids always have to be annoying when u just want to relax and sit down for the night god they make u angry sometimes. My daughted bit me today i felt like slapping her but i didnt i never would but god i sometimes think why are they like this ?????

monday monday monday

well as u can see its monday lol, today i have had the laziest day just doing wii fit then trying to organize my mums 50th party.
Have weigh in in half and hour and cant wait so looking forward to it i have been really good this week , even went to a 50th and drank jime beam zeros and instead of having a big piece of cake i had a little bit of my daughters and i mean little. so im proud i have been tracking all week and exercising everyday and i feel good, I feel that good that last week i decided to go off my depression tablets for me , i think the more i have been walking the better i feel and i think the walking makes me want to move more and it even has a weird way of making me want to do the house work (weird i know) it must be those endorphans kicking in.
Will write again sometime in next few days with the results

its friday and im still on track

hi everyone well today is friday and yep im still doing really well this week with being on track , tracking and exercising ( although it would be better if it would stop raining). I have been counting points all week and can proudly say that i am still on track.I have been trying to get about 3 points a day with my exercise considering the weather i think thats good.
I went to big w yesterday and thought i might buy a folder and plastic pockets so that i can write or printrecipes off theweight watchers website as well as making my own so that my partner can help with the cooking as well and know that he is doing it all ok.
On another note i dunno if i have ever written about my beautiful little girl taylah but we find out next week if she will still be finishing chemo in december, i so hope so, i wanna start a new year with no problems and look forward to movinginto a new place ( when we buy one) and not to have her go through what she has had to for the last year. I know its not as bad as some chemo patients but she is still my little girl who is only 29months old.
Anyways enough of that better go pick her up from day care, hopefully i can get through the weekend without any problems as we have a party to go to tomorrow night after work, should be ok my partner is buying me jim beam zero's so that should all be good.
Thats all from me for now.

back on track for real this time

so i was reading the new weight watchers mag last night after my meeting and it had a good article on blogging, how people use it to express themselves kinda like a diary and it got me thinking this would work for me i think, its sort of what i was doing already but maybe ican expand a bit more.
I knew my weigh in this week was going to be bad and im so stupid for letting 1.6kgs get back on NOT HAPPY JAN...... this week and for the rest of my life i am determined to stay on track and count my points , meal plan , exercise and go to my meetings and loose the weight. I get on such a high like everyone else when i loose and its a fantastic feeling especially going into the shops and getting new clothes. Iv always hated clothes shopping not being able to find what i like and stuff like that.
WELL NO MORE - i know i have said it before but i am definately on track i have realised what is the point of eating that fatty food when all it does is make u upset beacause u have gone off plan and it makes u stack on the weight and doesnt even fill u up, yeah it might taste nice but whats the point.
I love my vegies and i think i just have to be better prepared. I had planned to go for a bike ride today but somehow i dont think so as its pouring here sowill get off the computer soon and get my biggest looser dvd out and do that. Maybe even the wii active as well. I been a bit slack lately with all that we brough the wii and have hardly even used it.
Anyways thats enough of my yapping for now have a great day all and ill post again soon